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Thursday, November 3, 2011 ( Outcast @ 5:02 PM ) Feel like an outcast of this society with no place to fit in. Why do i feel like i always have to try and fit in. Dear God, if you say im your child. Why do you never appear to me??? 0 comments Wednesday, September 28, 2011 ( Happy Birthday Mumny @ 2:13 AM ) It's my mum's birthday today. Just the other day, i was out shopping for a card for her. Came across a beautiful card, talking about the many wonderful things that mothers do. I paused when i read the sentence which went something like "thank for for tucking me in bed every night" Dunno why but my heart sank when i read that sentence. I wish i could call my mum my best friend. I get jealous when i see mother and daughters cuddling together on the sofa or on the bed talking abt a tv show or even anything under the roof. Things have gotten kinda awkward between us over the years and sometimes im afraid of being left alone with her, afraid of not knowing what to say. Afraid that she might speak to me in a tone which would hurt my feelings. I wanna be to tell her things abt whats gg on in my life, but somehow i just dont feel extremely comfortable about it. I miss the mum who watched over me when i was still a kid. So many happy memories she planted in our lives then. But as her business grew, things changed.... No amt of words and truly explain my feelings. I appreciate her for who she is. And i guess that all mums are perhaps different. I sure wonder what kind of mum i'll be nxt time. But one things for sure is that i would want to build a comfortable relationship with my daughter, where she'll be willing to share with me about anything.... 0 comments Tuesday, July 26, 2011 ( spoilt @ 7:55 PM ) Certain things that she does really put my patience to the ultimate test. For the sake of family peace, i guess i just gotta bite my tongue and bear with it. Just a word. Seriously, grow up! Stop acting with a spoilt brat You dont own the world. Stop living in that useless fantansy world of yours. It's better off withou you. You're no longer 16. Wake up!!! 0 comments Monday, June 27, 2011 ( loser @ 8:08 AM ) i'll always be at a loss. Loser. 0 comments Sunday, June 5, 2011 ( why @ 12:55 PM ) Why is this world so unfair. Having to put up with shit And when my mouth opens i am put down. 0 comments Wednesday, June 1, 2011 ( Vicious Cycle @ 1:43 AM ) It's a vicious cycle. But why do i have to be caught in it. Sigh. Can't blame her, her mum was like that too. Maybe worst. It's up to me to break it next time. Just don't understand why is it she's so unapproachable most of the time. I find it so hard to talk to her. I'm afraid to ask favors from her. If i do, i need to see her mood. But she was fine a while ago, laughing while talking to her husband. Hate to ask her for favors, make me feel as if i owe her something. Hate that feeling. Will never forget times when she offer to do things for me (when she's in a good mood), only to use it against me in the end (when she's in a bad mood). Resulting in unhappy endings. Nightmares. Hurt. Wish i didn't have to rely that much on her. If only i was more capable. I would have gotten myself out of this place. When i'm out next time. Don't blame me if i don't care. 0 comments Tuesday, May 31, 2011 ( If only @ 12:05 AM ) Went to watched Kungfu panda 2 after the paper together and it was really a great way to relieve one's mind. Was suppose to complete another chapter today but i'm in no mood to do so. Finally got to talk to my mum today, so i decided to tell her about the Australia road trip that i was going with Jem's family. Guess what her reply was... "oh, you've to pay yourself". In a really bitter tone. Oh... you've to pay yourself???? That's all? Those words still ring in my head and i was quite upset over it. She did not even bother to ask like where and stuff. She did not even bother at all. (to some of you, this might be nothing, but you dont understand) I felt quite, rather really hurt after that. Why is she like that. Why can't she care a bit more. If it were Jem's mum she would have been much more caring.... maybe overly caring but i guess it's better. Sigh.. sometimes i just yearn for that mother-daughter relationship with her. Where i can be myself and share little secrets with her. But i just find it so hard to talk to her. Even awkward sometimes. I long to be able to lie in her bed with her and like watch tv together or something. But no, she goes into her room and locks herself in it. If it were my dad it would have been different. I guess..... But he's not here...... 0 comments |
