After a long 2 weeks break i'm finally back to work. To my horror my partner resigned without me even knowing at all. She probably couldn't take it any longer, well who can anyway. I've got like a pile of lessons to conduct, activities to be set up etc. It's just so many tat i don't even know where to start. Dear God help me pls! I think i just need another long break if not i'll probably fall into depression. I wish i could just vomit out all these terrible feelings. People say tat i'm like still young and shouldn't have so many worries but it's easier than it seems. I hate the feeling of being cared for one day and being abandoned the next. It's like i'm just a pathetic person trying to find for a fake friend who is only able to give me happiness for that moment. The next moment, the person totally forgets everything. I also hate it when people says that they'll do things just out of convenience sake when actually they don't even mean it! Then they completely forget what they said, when the person whom they had said to is waiting for that person to do what he has agreed to. This sounds rather complicated. Oh well. Everything seems perfect when i'm surrounded by people, but when i'm back all alone behind close doors i can only cry out to Him to take away my sorrows. To solve this problem i will have to get to the root of the problem and the only way is to perhaps have the "HC attitude"
Dear God, help me to show forgiveness and not to be so bothered by things so easily.
I've been suffering from post-MIT syndrome for the past few days. At times i feel really upset, but nevertheless i have to try to get use to it. Woke up this morning feeling rather depressed as usual, but as i went out and unwind myself a little, things got better. I kind of hate this feeling of not knowing the meaning of life. Have been thinking through what Stephen told me yesterday night. I think i should really learn to adopt the "depress then depress lo, dont have then dont have lo" attituide. After all, i believe this is only going to be temporarily. I have to learn to look forward and not backwards, life will be much more meaningful this way. There are times when i feel like bursting out into tears and just hiding myself in my room. But whenever this thought enters my mind, i have learnt to quickly brush it away. I believe that the more you think and dwell on it the worst i will feel. I am slowly giving up all these feelings to God cause i know that only through him can i find true joy. I also thank God for friends who have been there for me. I think that what i am going through now is just called parts and parcels of life.
Dear God, please give me the strengh to walk through this period of my life and surrender my all to you.
I'm back! Reached Singapore at 3.30. I'm finally back to the reality of this world. Back to where i used to be. Somehow the time passed really quickly, day after day we have been ministering to different ppl. At chiangmai, i was really touched to see the children lived, to be able to be a blessing is truly a wonderful feeling. The highlight of the trip was on friday night when we stayed at the Monk village. The team slept in tents in an uncompleted church at the village. We had a ride of our lives up the mountains to this village. At night, it was so cold, it felt almost like winter. Most of the team members could not really sleep well, every now and then there would be weird creatures making strage noises, and these Monk village sure had lots of roosters. These roosters were like cockadooing all through the night, waking us up every now and then. The part which i could not forget most was our bathing experience. Up in the mountains they didn't have heaters so the water was freezing cold, worst of all the water was not clear at all, it was muddy water! But thank God i only realised it after i finished bathing. But we all had fun and truly experienced how the Monks live. I cant wait to get my hands on the pictures that we took, so will upload some photos when i have gotten them:)
Dear God, thank you for keeping us safe during the trip.
Sick! Sick! Sick! I've been sick for almost a whole week. First sore throat then flu. So as you can guess, i'm on MC today. Oh well, at least i get to have a day off to do my packing and get ready before i fly off to Chingmai tomorrow. I sure hope i'll recover by then. Tomorrow's flight is so early! But i'm feeling quite excited about it cause i believe that this trip is going to be something different! I believe that God is going to do something powerful in the lives of the people there! I'm almost finished with my packing, just have to put in a few more stuffs before i'm done. Better go get ready now, see ya one week later! I'll probably blog some exciting stuffs that i experience during my MIT trip:)
Dear God, i pray that you will prepare us for the things that you've prepared for us at Chingmai. Amen!
Finally reached Chiang Mai airport
Waiting for the driver to fetch us to the church after checking into our hotel rooms
This is where we slept during our one night stay at the village
The team getting ready for our trip up to the mountain village
Us, giving out soft toys to the kids at the mountain village
We had to cut vegetables for our dinner
All prepared with our animal mask for out Noah's ark skit
Having lunch before going to the boarding school
A pretty mum and me putting up the decorations for the children's party
Party time! Our group filling up water bombs to give out to the kids. Wassup wif the look on P.Ben and Stephen face?! LOLS!
Blowing balloons for the kids
Irene and I with our prettily done up photo boards
The wonderful team!
The ladies feeding P. Ben with the yummy mango 
