Went to watched Kungfu panda 2 after the paper together and it was really a great way to relieve one's mind.

Was suppose to complete another chapter today but i'm in no mood to do so.

Finally got to talk to my mum today,

so i decided to tell her about the Australia road trip that i was going with Jem's family.

Guess what her reply was... "oh, you've to pay yourself". In a really bitter tone.

Oh... you've to pay yourself???? That's all?

Those words still ring in my head and i was quite upset over it.

She did not even bother to ask like where and stuff.

She did not even bother at all.

(to some of you, this might be nothing, but you dont understand)

I felt quite, rather really hurt after that.

Why is she like that.

Why can't she care a bit more.

If it were Jem's mum she would have been much more caring....

maybe overly caring but i guess it's better.

Sigh.. sometimes i just yearn for that mother-daughter relationship with her.

Where i can be myself and share little secrets with her.

But i just find it so hard to talk to her.

Even awkward sometimes.

I long to be able to lie in her bed with her and like watch tv together or something.

But no, she goes into her room and locks herself in it.

If it were my dad it would have been different. I guess.....

But he's not here......