It's a vicious cycle.

But why do i have to be caught in it. Sigh.

Can't blame her, her mum was like that too. Maybe worst.

It's up to me to break it next time.

Just don't understand why is it she's so unapproachable most of the time.

I find it so hard to talk to her.

I'm afraid to ask favors from her.

If i do, i need to see her mood.

But she was fine a while ago,

laughing while talking to her husband.

Hate to ask her for favors,

make me feel as if i owe her something.

Hate that feeling.

Will never forget times when she offer to do things for me (when she's in a good mood),

only to use it against me in the end (when she's in a bad mood).

Resulting in unhappy endings. Nightmares. Hurt.

Wish i didn't have to rely that much on her.

If only i was more capable.

I would have gotten myself out of this place.

When i'm out next time.

Don't blame me if i don't care.