What a week end this was.

Full of emotions.

Went through a lot of thinking.

Actually i didn't really dare to think of it.

I'm afraid,

even at the thought of having it in my head for a split second.

Never felt this way before, never wish to feel like this again

Wished it was all a nightmare that i could wake up frm.

felt horrible,

felt terrified,

felt like cutting myself up,

felt like banging my head against the wall.

The tremendous pain i felt.

Was unbearable.

Terrible.

no one really understood

But i guessed not all was lost.

Reflected quite a bit with what i wanted to do.

Decided to focus on other stuffs.

And i think most importantly,

closer friendship bonds were formed.

I knew who were those who really cared.

Opened up my eyes to those who stood by me,

and i know they will always be there to pick me up when i fall down.

Thanks you guys, i love you all!